Butterfly Blue Ministries
It was the year 2005, and my relationship status with God was dubbed 'It's complicated.' mainly since I still desired to sin and not feel too much guilt doing so. Thank goodness God does not see things the way humans do and loved me regardless of my outstretched hand, warding Him off, but instead still pursued me knowing that one day I would accept His pursuit and welcome Him as my beloved and change our relationship status to "In a forever committed relationship." One of the ways He pursued me at this time was in my dreams. The following dream was the conception of Butterfly Blue, but would not be birthed for another 7 years. I was walking in a tropical forest and came upon a gorgeous vibrant blue butterfly. I personally had never seen a butterfly this beautiful before; in a dream or in real life. As the butterfly and I came face to face; instead of fearing me and flitting away, it hovered. As I gently and cautiously held the palm of my hand out to it, without hesitation, it landed ever so gently and just rested. That was the jest of the dream, but between the colors and sweetness of this butterfly, I knew there was divine meaning behind it and one day, I would possibly discover just what that was. It was early evening of Good Friday of 2012; I found myself experiencing a similar scenario to The Samaritan woman, but my well took on the appearance of my own bedroom. Just like The Samaritan woman's life was forever transformed, so too was mine. A new journey of inner transformation began for me that evening and has not let up since. I had to start from scratch understanding just what this man named Jesus was all about. I had to rid myself of everything I had been taught in church and just allow His teachings to come forth from His heart of grace so my heart could be healed and I could love again. Jesus showed me at this time the similarities between my new journey of trust, abandonment and transformation and that of the beautiful blue butterfly I had dreamed about 7 years earlier. I discovered that a butterfly has to die completely of itself before the transformation takes place within its cocoon and I too have had to do the same on this new beautiful journey of restoration and transformation. My old ways of thinking, worldly habits and sinful ways all had to die at His feet before I could be reborn into what He already knew was possible. That night in my bedroom, instead of coming face to face with a butterfly, I came face to face with Jesus and my life has never been the same. During this divine encounter, a spiritual awakening took place and so began a beautiful courtship and journey between the two of us. It was during this journey that Butterfly Blue Ministries was birthed and represents the beauty and power behind choosing to surrender to the possibilities of change through the power of Christ; welcoming it, trusting in the process and celebrating the victory God already knows is won. It was a year past my Good Friday encounter that God brought a Boaz into my life and Dave and I have been married now for 7 years. This year Dave has decided to team up alongside me and so Butterfly Blue Ministries has grown into something even bigger. You see, Dave and I both understand the pains of shame, disgrace, emotional, physical and sexual abuse, co-dependency, rejection and trauma. We have grown in grace and truth, not because of anything we have done, but because Christ in us has transformed every part of our once toxic and negative mindsets and with His perfect demonstration of love, truth and grace has given us new minds, hearts, spirits and identity. We have committed to releasing what was once dead within us due to lies we grabbed ahold of and gave power to, and traded them in for Gods life-giving truth which has established within us a new foundation grounded and grafted in Jesus's powerful redeeming love. We are no longer slaves, orphans, victims or filled with shame and disgrace. We can gaze in the mirror and see staring back at us His reflection of healing restoration through love and grace. We love what Jesus has done for us so we both desire The Father's heart for inner healing through truth and grace to flow freely within this ministry and pour out to those we minister to.